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Farewell...

Victoria Wallach passed on in comfort around 2:10am on April 3rd...

She shone her amazing light and grace to the end, and we are all poorer for her absence.

A San Francisco memorial service will be planned for sometime in the near future.

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There was a beautiful memorial service held in Michigan on May 10th at Harvey & Carole's church.

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Hello everyone...Its been a while...

Hello Dear sweet Community

I’m so sorry I haven’t written in a while. My eyes are giving me trouble so I haven’t been emailing much at all.

I’m praying and willing my body to get stronger, holding steady at, It just seems to be hard for me to gorge myself.

So I’m trying to eat something every 2 hours. This doesn’t always work out by I try.

I’ve also been saddled with the cough that is so bothersome and leaves me breathless. Nothing showed up on an x-ray, so all I’ve been given is cough syrup. It subtly feels better today.
When I start to get in this coughing fit I get really wound up so I am trying to calm down, breathe in the air from the outside.

I’m hoping that when I go to clinic on Tuesday they can give me a CT scan with the contrast dye that shows everything.

Its so busy at the clinic that I feel like I am in the dark. Pricilla and Derrick are so busy that often the visits are short and things are forgotten.

That’s my biggest complaint; one really does have to take charge.

I’m praying with my humble heart that I am stronger by Saturday. There is a Healing Ceremony being put on for me. It is called a White Moon Ceremony.

I believe in these practices and I cant wait to be with God in that way.

So if you think about it, send lots of healing prayers to that Tipi, This Saturday March 22nd. The power of prayer and open hearts and good intentions has so so so much power.

Over all I’m pretty tired, I take naps in the afternoon, I’ve started going on short walks to condition my lungs. I’m doing my best to let go of my anxiety and replace it with faith and Trust. When I breath in I expand my heart to make more room for healing and love and then exhale out thru the top of the head releasing my prayers to God.

Thank you for standing by and offering your love and prayers and good thoughts all the time. I have learned so much about love these past 2 years. And I know I will recover so that I can walk this road and continue to teach the big love.

Many Many Blessings
Love, Love and Nothing but love.

Namaste
Victoria

The Clouds are clearing...

Hello Dear Community

I have really felt your love and support strongly these past 2 weeks. My treatment wipes me out for about 2 weeks. Today, I feel much better and feel like doing more then just sleeping. Although I’m taking 1 to 2 hour naps everyday.

Your love and Prayers are so supportive and nurturing. They are helping me heal.

I will write more as my strength comes back and fill you all in on thoughts and ramblings.

I just wanted to touch base and let you know I’m thinking about all of you and feeling your healing love.

Big love and Nothing but love

Namaste
Victoria

(Editor's note: ...And a huge thank you from the rest of her family as well!!)

Hello all...

Hello Dear Community

I know I have been out of touch.

I didn’t have to go into the hospital and the blasts have lowered.

But whew the pre meds they give me wipe me out and I have basically been sleeping 3 hours after clinic and going to bed early

All in the name of healing.

I’ll write more when I have energy but for now I want to send love and gratitude.

Love, Love and Nothing but love

Namaste
Victoria

A cozy, Cloudy San Francisco day...

Good Morning Loving Community

It’s Saturday morning and I feel a little better then I did yesterday. Sometimes I just feel so tired.
I did take 2 naps and had about 8 hours sleep so this tells me how important naps are.
Counts are low but this is when it happens. So this is contributing to the tiredness.

Monday is the big day. I will either continue with the treatment I have been getting out patient or I am going to admitted for the big gun Chemo.

I did write Doc Martin to let him know I still am not feeling super strong.

I accept whatever is for my highest good and health. And praying for 0 blasts in my blood.
We all know the power of prayer.

It’s grey and about to rain here in SF. I am very grateful for this. Everything gets greener, it’s easy to rest and be at ease, and it sounds soothing on our skylights.

Mom is coming in tonight and I am so looking forward to it. Noah has to travel for the first time in a while and will be gone from Sunday to Friday. Mom may end up staying 2 weeks depending on my need.

In the hospital or out those weeks after Chemo can be rough.

Everyday I dig down for strength, rest when I need to, pray all the time, open my heart completely to healing and love and all of your prayers. I have Faith, I have Trust, I am full of Gratitude.

Where ever you are I hope you are having a cozy day and doing something you love.

Love, Love, Nothing but Love

Namaste
Victoria

The Incredible Shrinking woman...

Hello Sweet Community

It’s been a little while.

I’ve been feeling a little extra tired. I am in what they call the Nadir state where my counts are the lowest.

Ugh. It’s a whole different story being at home going thru this then being in the hospital
I do like being at home more, but everything is an effort, even with the tremendous help we have been getting.

My biggest worry at hand is the amount of weight I am loosing. I weight 89lb, well right now after breakfast I weight 91. I am eating as much as I can and as often as I can.
It feels like my body is not absorbing the nutrients.

When one gets a lot of antibiotics you loose all the friendly flora and bacteria in your gut.

So I am now taking Pro-biotics which help replace this, I am taking a gentle supplement that helps me absorb food and L- Glutamine which helps my intestines. This will take time but I am confident that this will help me gain some weight. All of which are very gentle on the body. So lets cross our fingers and say our prayers because the last thing I want is to be depleted and wasting away.

This is the most distressing thing to me out of everything that is going on. I’m trying as hard as I can nap, walking around the house to gain strength, eating about every 2 hours.

I’m fighting and keeping my spirit strong, but I notice I am getting more weepy and frustrated. Deep breaths and deep prayers bring me back to my center and my power and my faith.

I wanna stick around a lot longer and walk on this road for a good long time. I’m ushering the AML out of my body to make room for Complete and Unlimited Health and Healing. I want to be of Service and touch people and interact and be out in the world and experience more of Mother Earth, become an elder. All these things. I want to teach what I’ve learned and hear what all these young people have to say and teach, I want to help heal this planet.

But isn’t this what we all want?

So today I breathe deep, always find my heart and faith, visit with friends who stop by with food and hearts full of love. And I full of Faith, Trust and Gratitude.

Because even though I’m scared and feel weak, I am surrounded by so much Love, so much Love that I’m sure it would lift me and hold me and heal me on the deepest levels.

And that love extends outward and touches all of you. And we all get healed just a little bit and we get healed in a real big ways too.

Ill keep remembering the Love and how much all of you constantly are giving me and Noah on a daily basis.

And that Dear Ones is Serious Medicine!!!

Love, Love and Nothing but Love

Namaste
Victoria