Photophresis and I are like this...

Hey all
Happy Holiday weekend!!!
Ah..... a nice long weekend.
Ah ..... no appointments for 3 days.
Ah ..... those of you that are off on Monday and maybe even off to have a special well deserved time away, or fun with friends, or time in your gardens, or just plain time to do nothing.
Funny its called "Labor Day", when really its not a time to Labor.
Ahhhhhhhhhh

So today I found out that Ill be getting Photophersis for 6 months....Photophresis and I are like This (crossing fingers, like we are best friends). I guess we are like best friends. And in a really weird way I dig it.

Its so gentle and its not Chemo and I get to nap and chat with the sweet nurses. And I know it is going to do the trick and as its doing its magic, it is my ticket off of Prednisone, eventually....

My dreams of being weaned from the Prednisone have not come true yet, we need to see a little more improvement with my lungs. Mid-Sept we'll see how things are looking.

And I do have to say I agree on this point. Patience, Patience and more Patience. Faith, Trust, even humor I suppose. As I have said this healing has its own time frame that I have nothing to do with.....

My body is strong and fierce and it is working its darndest to heal. It takes a lot to grow a new body from the inside out.....

So I do my routines and rituals and take my pills and try to eat well, and walk and do yoga, and listen to my guided imagery CDs and all of it. Steady and committed in a way I have never been before.

I visualize myself in 2 months... in 6 months... in a year. Strong and Vibrant, healed and renewed....Changed.

Thank you for all your continued help with all of this healing.

Have yourselves an amazing weekend wherever you are and whatever you are doing or NOT doing.

Love Love Love
Purrrs and Prayers
And tons of blessings and peace for a really wonderful safe and nurturing weekend!!!

Namaste
Victoria

Liza...

I know you all know about my friend Liza Matlack.
This is from her sweet Partner Jim.

Please do what you can do thru prayers and sending love and light, whatever feels right for you. For support for Jim and their family and friends and for Liza, so that she has peace and courage in her heart.

Liza is an amazing woman and the moment I saw her before we introduced herself. I knew we would be connected, and I love her very much.

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Dearest Friends,

There is no easy way to say this except to tell you straight up.

After many meetings with Liza's doctors it has become clear that there is nothing more we can do to help Liza recover from everything that has happened to her body in the last year. With the deepest sadness, fear, honor, respect, and immeasurable love her family and I are starting the process of letting her go.

I am weeping as I write this. We are all devastated on so many levels.

Please know, however, that deeper than the devastation there is a fearless wisdom that is guiding me and her through all of this. Please pray for me to be able to rest in that wisdom and to have the strength to help midwife the transition of the bravest, strongest, fiercest, softest being I have ever known.

I miss you all horribly and wish you could be here with your love, spirit, and creativity to help guide this. I am so sorry to have to write these words. I wish I could call you each individually instead of sending this email. Know that I want to be able to gather and grieve deeply with you when I return. And know that, when enough time has passed, we will throw one hell of a kickass party for this unbelievably kickass girl.

For now, I invite you into the practice of sending Liza immeasurable love, light, joy, wisdom, truth, and fearlessness. May she recognize her true nature and be liberated from all suffering. Please pray deeply, powerfully, and constantly for her, whatever that means for you.

May all your lives be changed for the better by the kindness and generosity you have offered to her and to me.

Yours,
Jim

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Namaste
Victoria

Update on my friend Liza Matlack...

Good Morning Everyone.

I hope you slept peacefully and awoke feeling blessed to be able to take another breath and begin a new day. Today I feel this way.

I just received and email from my friend Jim Santi Owen, Liza's partner.

He said that Liza is not doing very well and they are finding more and more things going wrong. I don’t know the detail of this but what is important is that she needs prayers and beautiful healing light sent her way.

She is still being treated at MD Anderson in Houston, not where they live. They are not near their friends or where they would find the most comfort.
Friends and family are being to gathering, waiting to here what is going to happen.

Please pause to think about this beautifully graceful amazing woman, Liza Matlack.

Here is a picture of Brenda, Liza (in the middle) and myself, back in Feb I think.



Appreciate your day, yourself, your health, those you love you, the breath you are able to take full, the healthy movements of your body, the blessing of this life.

Thank you for all your support not just for myself and Noah and my family but for the friends I tell you about.

purrrrrs
Prayers
Love, Love Love

Namaste
Victoria

Blowfish face and other annoying things...

It’s Sunday Morning and foggy and I didn’t sleep much last night.

Ugh, that must be what is adding to my mood.

Just one of those days I don’t feel like taking 10 pills and wait an hour to eat…

Just one of those days where I look in the mirror and don’t recognize who is looking back at me (I think for some reason I got puffier in the face and body over the past few days)…

Just one of those days where I think, how many months has it been? And OH my Gosh I’m past the 10 month mark from transplant and that’s almost a year…

Just one of those days I don’t want to feel tired and look strange.

It feels like when you are a little kid and the closer something you’re excited about gets the more impatient and antsy you get.

That’s how this feels. So were getting closer to healing this current stuff. That the mysteries of healing and God and are working and we are not on the same time table.

I have a teeny tiny cold, but had a CT Scan to make sure there is nothing brewing. I’ll get results on Monday. There won’t be anything there. Just my beautiful Lungs slowing healing and releasing all that stuff that has them limited at this moment.

I am done with it. Seriously in my prayers I let Creator know I am done with this lung distress and if it is the right timing, to please take all and any blockages away. And Please give me some strong, vibrant, Lungs that breathe with ease.

That’s part of Complete Unlimited Health and Healing.

I don’t get too detailed anymore with my prayers because Creator knows just what to do. Creator knows my heart.

I can still have faith and my moments like the ones I’m having today. I just feel like I’m doing everything I’m supposed to and then some. Frustration!

Just waiting, being in this moment, praying, and of course asking the classic Victoria question, can we start weaning me off the Prednisone. Doc Martin said Sept and it will nearly be sept......

So what’s a girl to do?

Sorry about the Moody post.

I love you all, I’m OK just having one of those days, ya know.
Have a beautiful Sunday.
Noah is going to plant some flower seeds for me, I’m determined to get some of the Hummingbirds to come visit me in the back yard.

Prayers, Purrrrs, Love and Joy!!!

Namaste
Victoria

Fan for a Night...

Happy Saturday

Well Noah and I had a blast at the Giants game last night. We even got to see Barry Bonds hit it out of the park along with a couple of other guys.

It was an exciting game. We left at the 7th inning but still it was really fun.
I really felt like fan for the night, since normally we don’t go to the games.



Everyone involved with the event was so so so sweet. We did our thing on the field around 7:00 and I think it was filmed by KRON. So maybe some of you fans out there saw us.

It was nice to represent and give awareness to Blood Cancer. I hope that this event generated people signing up for Light the Night to raise money or give donations. They had a booth where people spun for prizes and a band and lots of info being given out. Plus the big announcement and introduced Noah and I by name as a Survivor family (“Wave to everyone when they say your Name")…and they had us up on the Big Screen.

How funny and fun. And a big blessing to be able to stand there and do that.



Thank goodness I dressed warm and Linda from LLS ( a big Giants fan and a pro at going to the game prepared) had a blanket. Next time Noah and I will be more prepared. Id go to a game again, why not.

But it as so much fun to be out there and cheering and laughing and doing something "normal".

Today is a foggy foggy grey day in SF. That’s OK tho. Its cozy in here, my cough seems to be going away. I feel well rested and feel peaceful and happy.

I hope where ever you are you feel peaceful and happy and loved.

Purrrrs prayers and Big Big Love.

Namaste
Victoria

Good Morning all…

I’m happy it’s Friday.

I wanted to let you all know about a TV show on Aug 29th called " Crazy Sexy Cancer"

Here is the link, its on TLC on cable so I hope most of you get to watch it.

I’m happy to see shows like this that is taking the shame that some people get when they have Cancer. I am excited to see this one young woman’s take it all on.

As soon as she discovered she had a rare form of Cancer she started filming. Double check the date and time in your area, record it and share it with others.

Cancer is nothing to be ashamed of!!!!

I’ll write more later, but wanted to make sure you put it on your calendar.

Tonight is the big night, Noah and I are going to The Giants Game and along with 5 other people make an appearance on the field. It should be fun. I haven’t been to a baseball game here since the park first open.

I’m really feeling connected to Light the Night and the amazing ways they figure out to raise funds. I think they sold like 250 tickets that were blocked off for LLS.org and the Giants are donating 5.00 per ticket, so that’s pretty cool. Plus it gives exposure to Light the Night.

Soooo I’m off to take a nap. Didn’t sleep well last night and have a CT Scan for my chest at 2:00. So its time to sleep a bit and rest my body.

Namaste
Victoria

A sunny Hello...

Hey lovely community

Man it has been so beautiful here in the Bay Area and just the right of Ambient Fog at just the right time in the City.

I wanted to send an email out for 2 reasons…

One, please keep my friend Liza Matlack on your prayer lists or part of your Meditations. She had an experimental stem cell transplant at MD Anderson in Houston, where she received cord stem cells that were totally miss matched then another round of her brother’s cells. This was to hopefully finally put her in remission and create some Graft VS Leukemia.

She was doing ok and there didn’t seem to be any blasts (cancer cells) in her blood, but then she developed some lung infection and was in ICU for about 2 weeks. She was sedated while using a breathing tube. She came out of ICU showed some improvement and started coughing again, put back under sedation and back into ICU.

They still have not done a bone marrow biopsy to see if she is in remission, because she is very very weak.

Please pray for this woman’s Complete Unlimited Health and Healing. She is amazing and Mighty
Thank you so much.

Secondly and on a lighter note Noah and I continue to do things to support Light the Night. This Friday Aug 24 we were invited to a Giants Game where about 200 tickets are being sold and 5.00 of each ticket is being donated to Light the Night. An hour before the game Noah and I and 5 others who are considered honored heroes will go out on the field. I’m not sure why to be introduced and give a face to what Light the Night is all about.

I won’t be speaking but I will be beaming as much love as possible out into that ballpark as possible.

To me the real heroes are the ones still fighting!!!! But I will not take anything any from my own fight that I have been fighting too. All of us with Blood Cancers are here to support each other, and I can still hear Brenda's voice clear as day to keep fighting and don’t give up we are in this together. She is my Hero!!!

So when I walk I walk for my Life, in Memory of Brenda, for my friend Jana's uncle Tito, for Liza who is fighting a fierce fight and for my little young Friend Andria who I think is now at City of Hope in a clinical Trial.

Thanks you so much all, just felt like sending a little note.

Thank you for all your prayers and light and offering up your yoga practices and sending love and well wishes and clear intentions all of it, all of it has power and all if it has meaning and all of it has contributed to my healing and the peace in my husbands heart as well.

Many Many blessings to all of you and may you find health and peace and contentment in every moment, even the ones that can be challenging.

Have a beautiful evening.

Love Love Love
Purrrs and Prayers and Peace.

Namaste
Victoria

Just a Happy Hello...

Friday afternoon and I’m feeling a little tired but really happy.

I can feel subtle healing on deep gentle levels. I am 100% willing to accept Complete Unlimited Health and Healing!!!

I saw Pricilla today for the first time in about 2 weeks and she even said it seems like I am looking better. It’s hard when I am in it every day to pay attention to the changes and healings.

But I am paying attention now. And when I look back, I know I am improving. But patience must prevail in every moment. That feeling of running ahead of me in my mind can really be a trickster.

That silly mind.

Listen to the Heart. See with the Heart...think with the Heart. Its all there.

So today, I am happy, my body feels calm, I’m breathing, the sun is shinning.

Happy Happy Friday all Savor it, but savor thru the filter of your heart!!!

Namaste
Victoria

One round down...

Good Morning Everyone.

It is such a beautiful San Francisco morning. I love when the fog is here and there and the sun breaks thru and casts this really magical light everywhere.
It pays to be up early in the AM, you miss this stuff if you’re in bed.
We are at a place in the City where the fog often stops at the hill behind us, but sometimes it rolls down just a little in whisps and creates this magical sense.

Ahhhhh this is one of the reasons I love this City.

So I have 2 photophoresis behind me. I skip next week and will be back the following week. It was easy and pretty painless, not including getting an IV, which is never my favorite thing.



But both sessions have taken less then 3 hours, so this has been nice. Mostly I have chatted with the nurses, while Noah found a hot spot so he could do his work (no connection inside the room we are in). After about an hour into it I get a bit sleepy and have dozed off. When I come home I am usually a little tired and have napped as well.

So for me the side effect is sleepiness.

Don’t know if I will adapt, but never the less, its good to nap and I have done this everyday this week. Even just a 30 minute cat nap does me some good.



I’m really good overall. I did a yoga class on Monday, and felt alright. I just did what I could but it was nice to move my body.

Doc Martin wants me to exercise a bit and I’m abiding the best I can. Grant it I am not sitting around here all day, I go up and down our stairs and move from room to room. But he wants me to walk and do yoga, keep the lungs working and getting some strength.

That antsy feeling creeps in still, I love the Summertime and its calling me to play. But spending this summer healing so that I can experience many many many many.......more summers is worth it.

I finally pulled out my sewing machine to work on a project, and have another one waiting. I have a painting project that is ready for me to just put my brushes to it.



So I’m finding non-manic ways to spend my time. It takes a bit to change gears for me but I am doing it little by little.

I’ve eased up on my obsession with my house and all the fluffing I do all day in it. And I’m beginning to allow myself some time to just sit and do nothing.

This is not just the practice for now while I’m healing but something I want to continue for my whole life. The savoring of the moment, THIS moment. And the letting go of so much Doing just for the sake of taking up time and space.

I feel happy and peaceful today. My breath is good, in fact come to think of it, I just climbed the stairs to the front door, and I wasn’t gasping or panting so much.
Thanks lungs for doing your healing process, growing me a really strong set.

So I continue on my path of Complete Unlimited Health and Healing!!!!!

I hope you have an amazing morning/afternoon.

Thanks for all the love and support and well wishes.
Peace, Purrrrs, Love and Prayers.

Namaste
Victoria

Didn't realize it had been so long...

Hello Sweet Community

I didn’t realize it had been so long since I had said hello and given you all an update.

I am fully on the path of Complete and Unlimited Health and Healing.

Next week I start Photophoresis at Alta Bates in Berkeley CA. I will be going on Tuesday and Wed at 8:00am every other week. It will take about 4 hours from hook up to unhooking. So Ill be watching lots of movies, listening to my Guided imagery CDs, hanging out with Noah, maybe even napping.

Doc Martin says the biggest pain in all this is the time spent, that it is just time consuming. I’m grateful I have it.

I’m scheduled till the end of Sept but the plan is 3 months of this very mellow, slow acting, arc of time treatment. I feel very good about all of this especially after seeing Doc Martin on Friday.
As usual I always get a sense of comfort and a clearer picture after speaking with him. I was very frustrated by the vagueness of the answers I was getting from both Priscilla and Cheryl the other NP at the clinic the past 2 weeks.

Although we want my lungs to be clear and healthy, it is not as major as Cheryl posed it to me a week ago when she said.

"Ah well you have 50% of your lung capacity....lots of people live with one lung". And she said it like she was ordering her morning Latte at Starbucks. Geeeez!!!

I told Martin that and he was like no that is not the case. He wants me to try to walk and do yoga and exercise my lungs within my capabilities. So this is what I will do.

I know in my heart, in my core, that all is going to go well and one of the other yummie parts of the plan is to start weaning me off of the Prednisone.

I gotta say, I will take my Meds and will follow my treatments wholeheartedly, but I will be happy when I am off that one. I'll even throw it a farewell party when I take my last pill.

Here’s a kicker to let you know how strong this Med is, the bloat can take 3 to 6 months to go away!! Isn’t that just crazy?!?!?!

I hope that isn’t the case for the 85 beats per minute resting heart rate and high blood pressure I now get to experience (take good care of your hearts people!!!).

I just know that I have more Faith then ever AND that I am learning patience in the hugest way.

It is funny where my mind goes, I envision a leaner, non-puffy faced and bloated-bodied person, someone who looks closer to myself. And when I picture this, I’m thinking oh by my anniversary in Sept. or by my 1 year Remission Bday Oct. 24...

How strange and silly is that?

And then I’m like, no this is not my plan that I am on. It is a plan I am just a part of and moving thru and in the moment with. It's interesting to be in my body in this state. I have to move so much slower and take on so much less. And many of my friends are saying, finally. But it is challenging at times.

So Creator just reminds me to be patient, stay in this moment of healing. Pray for Complete Unlimited Health and Healing, and be strong and have Faith and be Courageous.

All the forces of Healing have rallied together in so many forms to answers prayers and Heal me up. And I know that it is on a time table I have nothing to do with, and in that is the truth of it all.

We just really don’t have that much control do we?

What I see is just being loving, be kind have a good heart and a good mind...have Faith...carry a good thought for myself and others. I just am not in control of anything else beyond that......

Such an important lessons I am learning and thank you for letting me share with them you all.

I am happy to be alive. I have so much Love and Faith in my heart. I am in Remission. I am Grateful. And most of all I feel very very blessed. All these things just take my breath away (no pun intended).

Have a Beautiful Saturday/ Sunday.
Breathe.
Love one another, because that’s all there really is.

Thank you always for what you give to me everyday, thru your prayers and good thoughts and Meditations, and just being who you all are.

Namaste
Victoria

Taking Matters in my own hands...

Hello again

I guess I have a lot to say these days, since there is so much going on.

Well today I had a pretty good visit at the clinic. Pricilla is out of town and I got to visit with Cheryl for a while. She seems to have a lot of knowledge although is a bit on the blunt side.

I got a few more answers about Photophreisis, mostly it really isn’t for the lungs specifically but that it calms the T-cells down over all.

The lungs take the longest to heal, so I will notice first the skin, eyes, mouth, then lungs. So yes we are talking a few months.

My guess is that Doc Martin wants to get me off Prednisone sooner then later, and Cheryl was saying you could be on it for a year. I am not buying that, because Doc Martin isn’t big on the long term med thing if it is not necessary.

She said yup it is a pain in the butt because of the amount of time spent doing it. 4 hours or so, 6 hours in total traveling to and from SF to Berkeley. like I said 2 times a week 2 days in a row for a month, then usually every other week.

But darn it I know it is going to do the trick.
I am having daily conversations and prayers with the T-cells to fight with me and not against me.

They did such a great job getting me in Remission. Its time to form a United Front and build an immune system that isn’t attacking the innocent one...ME! We all have this ability to talk with our bodies and you know I think they listen.

I’m on a beta blocker now for the high blood pressure and so far no side effects. Thank goodness. We are starting off slow, half a pill then build from there. For now there will be no effect the blood pressure but later on I guess it will.

I was supposed to wait for Alta Bates to call me with my first visit to the doc who is going to over see me in this process.

I thought hey I know the guys name, I am going to call his office and make sure things are moving along.

Well come to find out they were still waiting for info and Pricilla is on vacation and her assist is swamped. So we were in a holding pattern.

So I set up my own appointment, gave them Megs number and I am set to see the doc next week ( Tuesday) and will start the process the following week.

There is no reason to wait. When I am here at home and I can take part in my treatment. No reason that I get caught up in other people overloaded schedules.

I feel proud of myself and was loving and respectful while doing it. The woman I talked with was great and happy I called.

Im grateful that there are people on my side at UCSF but they get so busy and overwhelmed. I want to stay on top of things.

So I feel at peace because I am fully aligned with it all. I am ready and prepared and aware and doing all I can.

Everything Cheryl suggested today, breathing exercises, acupuncture, even yoga, and stretching my sides I am already doing.

So here we go...another phase towards healing

Hey maybe I need to listen to Bon Jovi since that is who Kristine, my donor is into...T-Cells is that what you want.....do we need to rock out so that you will stop fighting me and join my team?

Thanks for listening and loving and praying.
And remember always ask your doctor tons of questions take action in your own care no matter what it is.

Purrrs and prayers and love
Victoria

Namaste
Victoria

Is it possible for a head to explode...

Good evening everyone.

Ahhhhhhhhh peace at last. I think I had the worse migraine I have ever had in my entire life. It started yesterday (Wed.) around 2:00pm and just got worse and worse. I thought it was because of an inhaler I had used that day.

Still throbbing at 4:00am we called Emergency to see what we should do.

I mean is it possible for a head to explode!??!?!

All they could do was call in a prescription.

So I waited to call clinic at 8:00am, as it turned out it was most likely the new blood pressure meds they put me on that are time released. So they called in some Vicodin (YUMMIE!)…and by 1:00pm nearly 24 hours later the headache was gone.



I tell you there is always a new adventure trying to grow a new body from the inside out.

I even had the blessing to have the amazing Leni do some work on my, so now I am blissed out and head ache free…

No blood pressure meds for me, at least not this one.

And you know funny thing is my breathing is a bit better today and I don’t feel so freaked out about the new treatment.

I have learned it is a long-term treatment that works slowly but the aim is to get me off Prednisone. So I am feeling at peace with even that

I am here to LIVE to FIGHT and to participate in growing a New Radiant Vibrant body.

Anyway all my love to all of you
Prayers and purrrrrrs
Sweet Dreams

Namaste
Victoria

Another phase towards healing...

Hi Dear Community

Good Morning everyone.

I started an email yesterday to update everyone on how the Pulmonary Function Test went yesterday, but decided to wait till today.

As it turned out one of the machines were broken so I couldn’t have the full test. But somewhere along the line since my last appointment, Doc Martin and Pricilla have decided they DO want to go ahead and have me start photopherisis.

I have to say with all honesty, I had a feeling this was going to be the case. Something inside was telling me that was going to be the right choice.

However, I am not sure why they have decided to go forward in this way. I don’t know how many times I need to get the procedure done, I don’t know how long many weeks/months I will be in this process.

In short, I didn’t get a whole heck of a lot of answers.

Mostly the answers were I don’t know (this coming from Pricilla as Dr. M. is on vacation).

Her answers were like well you could need to do it for several months, I can’t say. When I pressed her she said “what do you want me to tell you Victoria......5 years!” (ouch Pricilla)

Now I understand that it all depends on my body’s response to the treatment.

But still I felt very much in the dark. What is the average response, since my lung distress is not major, what is the typical response?

All she could say is Dr. Martin can answer these questions. I don’t see Doc Martin till Aug 10th.

Well you know I am being asked to sign up for something that is a big commitment (which I am willing to make and is part of my health and recovery). But it’s kinda scary. I like to remove that factor with a little bit of knowledge of what I am entering into.

But throw a girl a bone and give me something, get another doctor they are walking all over the halls here, get another nurse that might have some kind of answers for me.

Because there I sit with my sweet Lungs, and my wanting to participate in my healthcare and treatment and have info, and all I get is glossed over answers.

I do know this.........

I will go to another hospital as there are not many of these machines around. And all the UCSF machines are booked.

I will go twice a week for a month. Then maybe every other week after that for some unknown amount of time.

The procedure, once hooked up, takes about 4 hours, so really with travel time to Oakland and back home; it’s a 6 hour day.

I cant go to the bathroom or eat during the procedure (this I read online).

It could make me nauseated and extra light sensitive (this I also read Online).

They give you some sort of ultra violet light sensitive med before (also read online).

I do know that it causes me to become even more immunosupressed, along with the Prednisone and tac I am already taking.


What I don’t know………

I don’t know when I will start this procedure (could be 1 week could be 2).

I don’t know if I will remain on Prednisone during the treatment.

I don’t know why they decided to go forward with this, except that my lungs didn’t seem to be better, but this was decided before they received any results from the PFT.

I don’t know if they are still considering this lung distress as minor GVHD( although my thought is it is, because of other factors having to do with chest and lungs are relatively normal).

I don’t know how quickly it starts to work and how they gage the improvement, I guess except me letting them know I can breathe better.

I don’t know if there are other side effects.

I don’t know if this procedure also helps other GVHD, such as skin and mouth and eye stuff.



This much I found out at the end of the day yesterday………

My insurance approved it (Pricilla thought it would take a week to get approval). Pricilla emailed and sent a letter to the secretary of the Dr. who is going to be taking care of me at Alta Bates in Oakland. And that I am to wait for a call from them to set up first an appointment for me to talk with the Doctor and then from there we will schedule the procedures.

I have taken action as I always do. I wrote to "Bridget the wonderful", my Nurse Coordinator in shinning armor. She usually has ways of explaining things to me and makes things clearer. I have not heard back yet, but will be back at the clinic today because they still want to do the Pulmonary Function Test. So I will see if I can stop by here desk.

I was born under the sign of Cancer and as Cancers we tend to not react right away; I always walk away and then later that day or the next day have a million questions. So here I am at 7:30am with some questions.

I don’t feel as stressed today as I did yesterday, I do want answers tho. This is such an example of really being apart of your medical team, ask questions, lots of them, be clear what is going on.


Again the Great Mystery. The Great Unknown. The practice of Patience and being in the Moment. The acceptance that this is part of my recovery and treatment.

And the realization that I am rebuilding my body from the inside out, I am building a brand new immune-system. I am renewing.

My counts are great.

I’m Remission.

I’ve got tons of platelets and red blood cells, leukemia free; swimming around my body. The rash on my skin is better and slowly fading. Eyes better, mouth improving.
I’ve gotten used to the bloatedness from the meds.

I’m now on blood pressure meds, thanks to Prednisone. Man that Medicine is feisty. So that is being managed.

So I just keep breathing and keep being grateful that right this very minute my breath feels normal. And right this very minute my body is working her butt off to repair and heal. And I am healing.

I continue to pray, and talk to my body and my T-cells and ask all to cooperate and rally together to repair those parts of my body that took a hit when the T-cells were first awakened to find they weren’t in Kansas anymore.

This is just a new hill to conquer, a new right of passage toward full Radiant, Vibrant, Health, which I will have.

This is part of it. I accept it but I want to be knowledgeable. I’m a human woman not some protocol. Talk to me Educate me.

So there you go. Long update I know.

I hope that the next update I send I have clearer information for you all.

I feel at peace, with that slight feeling in that background of ummmm are they going to call me today so we can get this ball rolling. The balance we all are challenged with being in the moment with the future so wanting us to pay attention to it and take us away from this beautiful moment we have, the future does this so well by whispering in our ear and trying to evoke worry.
But I choose peace so I’m sitting with her for a while.

Have a beautiful day, Happy August!!! August already!!!!
Big Love to all of you!!! Thank you for paying attention and giving love and good energy and prayers and positive emails.
It means a lot to me.
Purrrrs and Prayers
Love and Big Blessing


Namaste
Victoria