2007, What will this year be like?...

Hello everyone, Happy New Year, Happy Winter and Happy in general!!!

I know it has been a long time since I have sent out a post. You all have been on my mind, just figuring out what I would talk about.

Firstly, health wise, all is well. I am feeling better and better each day, and my numbers are slowly climbing as my new shiny baby cells find their way around my body.

No hair, just lots of tiny sprouts, dreaming and intending to become full fledged hair.

My parents are still here and the 4 of us, as well of the kitties have dropped into a flow that supports each of us and honors everyone’s space as well as teaches sharing space in a good way.

They will be departing California around Feb. 10, after we celebrate my Dad's (Harvey’s) 70th birthday. What a gift to be a part of such an amazing celebration for a rare and amazing Man.

I feel so blessed to have shared both my parents’ birthday with them this year. What a gift they both are in my life and Noah's life and my brother’s life and Mark's life and the lives of everyone they touch....and believe me that is A LOT of people.

I have learned so much from the both of them!!!

With the coming of new energy in my body comes a whole host of things. Firstly, I am getting a bit of cabin fever. I am off house arrest and can go out into the world when it feels good to me, and making good choices about what I am doing. However, I do feel a bit like I am a stranger in a strange land. It is then when I realize just how long it has been since I have been fully out there, and even more strange I kinda forget what it was like.

This leads me to what I hear many Cancer Survivors talk about and that is...."You will never be the same again"..."You will be Changed forever".

The sacred question I ask myself is "Who am I and Why am I here"?

I have faith that those answers will be revealed when it is appropriate. I am looking forward to being of Service to my communities and to embody the New Woman I am.

I have realized that this is a long road to full healing in small ways...and in big ways. Some days I find I've done too much and I get tired, sometimes I feel amazing and feel like I have boundless energy. I strive for middle and hope then when I am at 100% of Me I learn to not over do it ever and to enjoy the space between the spaces more.

Tuesday the 23rd is my 90 day bone marrow biopsy, we are all praying for continued Remission. My doc says that he is pretty sure I am already 100% my donor cells.

Whew...what a trip and what a gift.

Stay warm and safe and cozy where ever you. Let Love fill your hearts in every moment if possible, because after all it is all about The Love.

(Below, enjoy some pics from Christmas Day)

Namaste
Victoria

Happy 2007...

Hello Sweet Community

I know it has been a long time. But not to worry things have been really good and of course even being house bound have been busy with the holidays.

I hope that each and every one of you found peace and joy and love and whatever it was that you were looking for over these past several weeks.

It is hard to believe that 2006 is now behind us. It has been a very hard in many many ways....of course but I have been given so many teachings that I am deeply grateful for everything.

My prayer continues to be the continued healing of my body and that I will soon be back out in the world getting myself integrated in new ways.

My Donor and her cells have been a huge blessing and aided in giving me my life back. All the prayers, all the faith, all the laughs and letters and phone calls and the tears and going to the dark places, all have shown me my life in such a huge way and all have healed me in such a wonderfully physical way but also in a deep spiritual way as well.

I look forward to what’s ahead whatever that may be. Heart still full of Faith and brightness and eagerness to be of Service.

I will be having my 90 day Bone Marrow Biopsy on Jan 23rd, apparently this is the one where they can tell what percentage of my cells are the donors and what percentage are mine.....more on that later as I am not sure what it all means.

I am still on house arrest and may be till the end of January. It is flu season and if I do go out in public I must pick very carefully where I go.

Noah and I have taken some big walks. As well as my parents and I, and then various friends. This has been wonderful because I am feeling stronger in my muscles and am getting more and more of an appetite. There are a few hairs starting to sprout out of my head.

It feels like my head is the reflection of the winter...there are tiny hair seeds just below the surface of my head, a little sprouts up here and there, I can see very fine fine hairs as well. But by Spring my head will be in Full Bloom. hahahahhahaha.

It has been wonderful having the whole family together for the Holidays. We even got an extra special visit from Noah's brother Jason, who is currently living in El Salvador.

My parents will most likely be here till the beginning of Feb to celebrate my Dads 70th.

Thank you again for all the love and support you have sent our way these past 9 months.

All of our hearts here are filled with so much Gratitude.

May your new Year be full with Love, Peace, Abundance, and all the things that will create happiness in your hearts.

Happy New Year!!!!!
And Big Juicy Love.

Namaste
Victoria